A Girl, A Dream...Come True!

...I dreamed of having an electronic reading device...advanced technology that only an AVID reader could fully appreciate. Technology that allow me to have a complete bookstore at my disposal 24 hours/day, 7 days a week. Technology that would allow me to read, be read to, would mark my pages automatically, store thousands of books, be lightweight and thin, and easier to read than any book I had previously held in my hands.

Then, just in time for my birthday, the UPS man showed up on my doorstep. (No wonder my husband wouldn't take us out for supper on Friday night...he knew something was up!) The Amazon box came right on time.
And...yes, I recognized the box I had seen on Amazon's website as I had looked and dreamed many times before...the "Once Upon A Time..." on the end had given it away! Was my dream about to come true? Was I really going to be able to carry my own personal library everywhere I went?
Whaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!
A KINDLE DX!!!!!!!!!
It was amazing to see and hold! I was so excited! Within minutes I was able to download 27 books to MY Kindle!
(Of course, I already had been perusing the Kindle Store and had signed up to receive Kindle updates to my Twitter account months before...so there wasn't much left to do but get busy!)
How do I thank my husband, Michael, enough for caring so much? He knew the dream! Hehehe...what fun! Now, all I want to do is read!

Like a Fish.

Since I got back from a recent work trip two weeks ago, I have felt like a fish out of water... flipping and flopping around, trying to survive...trying to plug into the lifesource...feeling like I was on the shore, close to the water, but just couldn't get in. I've been off-kilter! And, I am not really sure why. I have gone from a week of exhaustion to a week of sickness, two sick children, stress, fatigue, unusually difficult and unexpected circumstances as well as emotional and spiritual challenges that have shaken me to the core. Wow! Does it sound like I am being a drama princess here, or what? But, it's so true! I have had to make some tough decisions during this time and still be everything to everyone...a tough place to be. Rather than being able to give in to sickness and just get well, I have had to be on my toes, manage alot, keep others at their best, be on my game, and keep it together. Hard stuff.

Have I passed the test? Well, I give myself a big fat "F" for week 1;
but week 2, my grade's coming up!
I think I'm at least floatin' again...

HOWEVER!

Since I got back on Friday evening from Atlanta from a week-long business trip, I thought the best way to reflect how I have felt - or more accurately - the kind of weekend I have had, is with the above self-portrait. You see, I had a great learning experience there...but, boy...am I exhausted. I couldn't wait to get home, put on my comfy clothes and wind down! And, that's exactly what I have been doing. With the exception of attending a baby shower and church, my days have been filled with my hair being twisted up on my head, reading, relaxing, napping and playing with my children. And, there's just something about being out of your routine for a week that puts things WAY out-of-sync. I am wondering when my 'in-sync' will be back????

On the flip side, some things really came together for me this week. It is so great when you get that moment of "A-ha!" that you know is going to make a difference in how you do things. But, how do I sustain that? How do I keep that going? At work, at home, at church, and in my personal life?

I believe that I must continually be learning...seeking wisdom.
I know that I must be living my life with vision...knowing that things can be different.

I see that it is the little things that clearly make the big things count...integrity, caring, work ethic.

I confirm that I can't do it alone...through Christ who strengthen's me.

I admit...that sometimes I don't know which direction to turn...even when I seek His voice.

I don't doubt that I will make mistakes...lots of them...and its ok. I'm ok.

I dream...alot. I get scared...sometimes.

I get tired.
That bothers me.

HOWEVER!

(Don't you love that...)

However...I will!
I will do what God has called me to do. It is completely and utterly doable.
I will have to step out of my comfort zone to do it sometimes...but we will

get 'er done!